Sunday, April 17, 2022
Thursday, February 17, 2022
Most of My Life, my thoughts have been near constantly dominated by what
I can only describe to be a + Detached, Internal Narrator+
a
voice that is ME, yet NOT ME.
" Conscience"many would declare it; but for me it seems more Distinct/Separate from what certain Philosophers call The "I" Inside. Or, The Thing-in-Self.
As a very young kid I thought it was God, or some variety of Angel. But since then I've grown to doubt the Judeo-Christian shit raped into my mind before the age of consent
Thursday, May 20, 2021
to eternally die a bit
To Eternally
Die
A Bit .
+++++++++++++
And
where is your
Truth
now
Dear Sufferer?
As you push your
Boulder
further
up Eternity's Lonesome
Hill?
knowing that
its
Doomed
To
Fall!
+
You NEED This
Madness...
it
is a Soothing Drug To
you.
A Sugar Pill Placebo
of
Fleeting
joy
which momentarily takes
away
Your Blues.
(until the next impending
boulders fall.)
+
I've found meaning in
your Lies.
and
My Meaning is to mock
you
till you REALIZE,
that
you must do The Same.
make it up as you go along...
cling
till you no longer care
or
replace it with the Next
New
Truth.
(Tomorrows Hated
Lie.)
+
The Moral of this fragment
is...
that..
everyones scared a bit
Their
"First Time."
but...
its not so bad after
all..
once you learn.
(To Eternally Die a Bit.)
J.Stephen.H
Unfinished Rant
Its hard to see the madness.
When you've always been a
part of it.
You must be Crazy enough
to stand outside of it All..
while grabbing The Ugly
Bull of Life
by The Horns and screaming:
"My
Lovely Sheep!!"
you have always belonged!
(to Me)
"Welcome Home."
"That Place
Old Familiar
Strangers meet."
(For The First
and
Very
Last Time.)
+
My first death scared me a bit,
because I had never died before.
Never felt the Terror of Potential
Nothing tearing at my Newborn
Heart.
Nor mistrusted (in my dying
moment)
The Fables of An Average
Youth.
But Now (given the Realization
we are All Eternally Dying
Beings) My Fears have been replaced
by A Boredom which burns
My Soul, and leaves me Gnashing
My Rotted Teeth at Those Careless,
Bastard Stars.
(Who have never felt what it is..
to be Made of Scars,)
+
Shit...
My Coffin...
My Coffin is ill fitted..
And This is quite The Opposite..
Of being Laid To Rest;
Hold me Fellow Broken
Angel,
in The Hours of My
Loneliness.
&
See Through My Eyes The
Blindness
We All Suffer as I struggle to
see...
A Candle...
(flickering within me.)
revealing fragments of
TRUTH..
those Paintings on The
Caves Cold Wall.
Drawn By Illiterate hands.
(who could have built it all.)
+
Tuesday, October 10, 2017
dear death
dear death.
+++++++++
I spend an inordinate
amount
of time considering my
end.
but how often does
death
consider me?
perhaps he views me
as
a friend?
(and thinks my jokes
are funny.)
dear death i like you
do you like me?
circle yes/no/or
maybe.
(now the crowd laughs
hysterically.)
sometimes i feel
like
an Asshole Ghost,
Haunting Himself
because no one else
will;
and I spend hours
contemplating what
hurts the most,
the time I waste,
or Kill?
dear death i hate
you do you hate me?
circle yes/no/or
probably.
(now
the crowd grows
still.)
j.s.h.
+++++++++
I spend an inordinate
amount
of time considering my
end.
but how often does
death
consider me?
perhaps he views me
as
a friend?
(and thinks my jokes
are funny.)
dear death i like you
do you like me?
circle yes/no/or
maybe.
(now the crowd laughs
hysterically.)
sometimes i feel
like
an Asshole Ghost,
Haunting Himself
because no one else
will;
and I spend hours
contemplating what
hurts the most,
the time I waste,
or Kill?
dear death i hate
you do you hate me?
circle yes/no/or
probably.
(now
the crowd grows
still.)
j.s.h.
confessions of a Mortal Janus
Confessions of a Mortal Janus.
++++++++++++++++++++++
Beginning to learn the
hard way,
that hell is not
lakes of fire, or being
confronted with torture
and physical torment.
It is existing in a world
surrounded
by profound beauty which
never seems to move you..
and
++++++++++++++++++++++
Beginning to learn the
hard way,
that hell is not
lakes of fire, or being
confronted with torture
and physical torment.
It is existing in a world
surrounded
by profound beauty which
never seems to move you..
and
Smiles are Objects
Without Meaning!!,
as you look up at the
sky and see blackness
peppered with flecks of
light
put there as if
Creation
were Born with a Sense
Irony,
constantly
seeking to
Re-Create
Itself.
+
Hell is
The
Love That
Hates
you,
(since
you
Burn
so
differently.)
The shit
you would
die for
because it's
Absence would
surely
Kill You.
(though
you go
on living
separately.)
+++++
Learning the hard
way,
that The Devil is not
a metaphysical entity
created by Perfection
to test Imperfect Faith.
It is an Absurdists
Reflection
of everything I
Love
and Hate,
while hoping
to be
Equals
with My Opposites
because I
secretly crave the
Temporary
Without Meaning!!,
as you look up at the
sky and see blackness
peppered with flecks of
light
put there as if
Creation
were Born with a Sense
Irony,
constantly
seeking to
Re-Create
Itself.
+
Hell is
The
Love That
Hates
you,
(since
you
Burn
so
differently.)
The shit
you would
die for
because it's
Absence would
surely
Kill You.
(though
you go
on living
separately.)
+++++
Learning the hard
way,
that The Devil is not
a metaphysical entity
created by Perfection
to test Imperfect Faith.
It is an Absurdists
Reflection
of everything I
Love
and Hate,
while hoping
to be
Equals
with My Opposites
because I
secretly crave the
Temporary
Heavens that
their Endless
their Endless
Hell's have
made!!
(and..
made!!
(and..
besides..
the alternative
seems
lonely.)
j.s.h.
seems
lonely.)
j.s.h.
Saturday, August 22, 2015
on ethics.
I recall something that a wise
Young friend of mine said
A few weeks ago, which has
left such an impression upon
Me that I now feel compelled
To share, and reflect on his
Words.
"What makes you a good
Person, (he said.) Is how
You choose to act whenever
You don't think anyone is
Watching."
On the surface, this statement
May seem mediocre in light
of the many complex arguments
posed by various philosophers
within the field of ethics, but
(To me) it effectively captures
the essence of what it is to be
Moral, and act in accordance to
One's sense of higher reason
in ways which perpetuate the
Greater Good.
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